Wednesday Weigh in Week 18

Sometimes I really just don't understand my body. Yep. Gain of 3.8 pounds. I know for sure I didn't eat 13,000 extra calories. So I'm not playing mind games. That's what the scale said. But I worked out 4 times last week, and yeah I ate things I shouldn't have. So maybe that's what my body is holding on to. But it's not going to cause me to quit. Just time to keep going :)

Hottest day of the year and I decide to run!

Yep. That about sums me up today! LOL! Hey it was a scheduled run! I'm not going just because its 90. Now that's I've done it I might very well change my mind hehe..But. Off I went. Even after a transformer blew somewhere around the school and we were out of power for 3 hours. No seriously. Do you know how hard it is to make preschoolers go to the bathroom where there are no lights? It was a (kind of) hilarious day with no lights. And then I went running.

I was trying out the garmin today! I was definitely excited to compare the two and see how close they were and they were only about .04 off of each other. And no I didn't really go trying to PR in 90 degree weather. I was just trying to finish! It was really funny. I had just been thinking to myself about how irritating it was for the people on the bike to not tell me that they were passing me. Now just because I have headphones in doesn't mean I can't hear you say "to your left" or something like that so I know you are there right before you whizz past me. I'm pretty sure it's what the sign says when you come into the park. Let the slower people (aka me!) know that you are coming up on them so you don't scare the bejeebee's out of them! So this one guy passed me rather unexpectedly. But he yelled "Keep it up!" at me. And totally made me smile. I was almost to 1.5 miles and ready to stop, but I kept going. Then almost to 2 miles these other people were like"Good job, way to go!". It made me smile.

But I did stop right after two miles. Well I started walking. And you know what. I walked the whole third mile. And I was absolutely ok with it. It was so stinking hot. I didn't want to overheat myself and pass out on a trial with no one around. So I made the decision to do what was best for me. And that was to walk. I did about two more spurts of running, but my body was pretty clear it was done running for the day. And I still ended up with about a 17 minute average :)

So my two thoughts for the day are: Random encouragement is fun :) Be nice to crazy people running in the park. They might need a way to go, or a smile from you. And two: I gotta start planning different running times in the summer. I don't plan on running too many more 90 degree runs.

And now I am off to try to catch some of this lightning that I hear the thunder rumbling from. It's getting close, so I better get the computer off!

<3

Perspective

It's so funny how our minds can really mess things up. We always tend to look more at the negative of things. Like instead of saying Oh I've lost 25 pounds this year, It's Oh I have 95 more pounds to go. I mean c'mon. Really? Why can't I seem to wrap my head around the fact that hey, I've lost 25 pounds. I mean that's a really great accomplishment. But really all I want to do is go OMG! Look how much I still have to lose by December!! I'm feeling like it's crunch time already, and it's only April. Which I suppose could be a good thing considering I am generally such a last minute person that I wait until I absolutely need to do something. But you can't really do that with weight loss. You gotta take it day by day. When really. I am 1/4 of the way to my goal. Well of losing 100 pounds. I mean I really want to lose more than that. But I will settle for 100. Not by any means will I not be happy in December if I don't hit 100 pounds. But I will do everything I dang well have to to be at 140 or under by December 31.

Including running in 90 degree weather tomorrow. Yikes! I was looking at the weather for tomorrow. And realizing there is absolutely no way I will be running in my pants that have pockets. And I haven't been able to find any capris that have a pocket that will hold my phone. So I improvised. We have these passport belts laying around our house, and it pretty well happens to look just like the running belt that I have been looking at buying. I tried the phone in it tonight, and it should work :) I don't think it will fall off while I am running. But we shall see tomorrow :) It might just help me by putting off purchasing a belt at this moment.

I'm charging the garmin to take it out on my run tomorrow :) I read the tutorial that Katie sent out, and already changed my info and stuff. So I will be comparing the mapmyrun app and the garmin tomorrow. I just have to remember to pack everything! Geesh!

I got to go shopping with a friend who met one of her goal weights yesterday. We had a great time trying to create an outfit for her. We had originally started with a red outfit she had seem put together. (Kinda like the ones on Pinterest). Yeah we totally ended up with this green open shoulder shirt from the junior section. I was highly amused because as a friend I was able to say, No. You don't wear a large now, you wear a medium. Try the smaller shirt on. And it worked. She fit into the smaller sizes of course ;) I can't wait till it's my turn and she makes me try on some clothes that I normally would never. Although I don't think that's gonna be a problem with me :) I can't wait to get into the smaller much cuter clothes!

Whew. It's already feeling hot in my room. I better get to bed and get started on next week!

It's here!!

I am so excited!! Katie's Garmin got here for me to try for a few weeks. Of course it came after my run this morning and right as I was walking out the door. So now I can't wait for my run on Monday to test it out. It's gonna be dangerous for sure as I already know I am probably going to want one. I will have to settle for my mapmyrun app for now ;) I'm pretty sure I am gonna use both of them and see how they compare.

I love Katie's blog by the way. She has lost 120 pounds and is maintaining it. She's so real, and crazy enough to send her Garmin across the country and even into Canada for absolute strangers to try. I read her blog every day :0)

So a funny thing happened on my run on Thursday :0) My app told me me average pace was 16:23. Um hello? Who am I? Running that fast. I was super excited that my 3 mile run was done in 49:14!! And it said my first mile was done in 15: 24. I mean did I break it? I really had no idea that I was even running that fast.

I honestly thought it was a fluke. 

Until I went running today.

I get back home and logged on. My app told me my average pace was 15:37 (!!!!) and that my 3 mile run was done in 46:55. And I even ran a mile in 15:00 even. Now for real. Once again, I didn't even think that I was running that fast. And today I even was running around the track at the middle school. (They were having a 5k race at the park I normally run at, a boat/rv/camping show at the second park I would have started at, and a pet adoption at my 3rd option. Keep my away. I will bring home an animal!! So the track it was.)

I'm really just quite shocked. I mean even from one run to the next, I seemed to have taken off almost 3 minutes. I mean, I know I have lost 25 pounds this year. And yeah. I have to keep telling myself that's a lot. But I have never been able to imagine running a 15 minute mile. I go back and forth over whether I want to maintain it for a while or just press on and try to keep running faster. I mean I know I did get some cross training in this week, but seriously. Does it help that fast? I don't know, LOL!

And since I'm being quite random in this post, I will just also tell you that I did 4 of my 6 planned workouts this week. I count this as quite a success :) I managed to run 2 times and do 2 other workouts. I'm happy that I was able to get some workouts besides running. It's nice to be able to work out at home sometimes too. Even if the bike killed me ;)

I think I will stop here for tonight. I have other thoughts swirling in my head, but I am going to keep those for tomorrow :)

Wednesday Weigh in week 17

Um yeah...Did you see that? 3 pound loss!!!!!!

I really have no idea how it happened. I didn't exercise. I ate things I shouldn't have. And I still ended up losing 3 pounds. Ok. I guess I will take it :) I did stop drinking coffee and started taking some apple cider vinegar pills. But still. My body might just be catching up with me.

Yesterday I did work out at home. I rode on the bike for 20 minutes and did a few weights, and some crunches. Um yeah. I get pretty dang tired of the bike in about 6 minutes. I have to say it hurts my butt incredibly! I am gonna see if I can angle the seat a little differently for tomorrow when I get back on it. It's definitely a change in workout. I can walk/run for an hour with no problem, but put me on a bike for 20 minutes and I feel like I am going to die! It's good to change it up every once in a while ;) Right?

So today of all days one of my wisdom teeth decides to come protruding on out of my mouth. Right in the gums above my last tooth. This is a little irritating since less than a week ago I went and saw the orthodontist to start braces again to get my teeth re straightened before I get the implant where my baby tooth used to be. The orthodontist asked me if my dentist was concerned about my wisdom teeth at all, to which I cheerfully said, nope. It didn't seem like a problem and we were gonna do the braces first. Lo and behold it decided to be a problem. Trouble is, they don't have an appointment until May 2nd to be able to look at it. Grr. Well they did. Today at 3, which conveniently I had already taken off from work because my mom had a doctor appointment. So that didn't work. I am going to be on a call list to see if there is an earlier appointment that I can be seen before the 2nd. Otherwise it's ibprofen my friend until I see the dentist.

So, now we are off to pick up my little brother for school! Woo-hoo for 3 pounds this week :) 

slightly too detailed?

Ok so I didn't realize deleting comments from my dashboard would completely delete them all from blog too. So no I didn't mean to delete all the comments? Lesson learned.

This morning I literally sat and planned out all my workouts until the end of the year. Detailed? Anal? Crazy? I don't know. LOL! I actually ended up doing it twice. grr. The first template I got was a legal sized paper and I couldn't get it to print out on letter correctly. SO then I got a different template and tried to copy and paste things. It wouldn't do it a week at a time, looked funky. Oh well. So I sat there and month by month copied and pasted all my workouts in.

As I should have been actually working out ;) Haha! Yeah, about that....

It was another crazy no workout week :( This is part of the reason that I actually sat down and figured out a schedule of working out, so I can just say hey, I'm busy until whatever time. I want to lose 98ish pounds by the end of the year. And I need a plan to do that or it wont be happening. So along with planning comes determination. This will happen this year. Even if I have to become incredibly anti-social for it to happen. Or if I happen to show up to different events all sweaty. That may have to start happening too. A lot of times I won't exercise because I don't think that I have enough time to shower and get redressed again before whatever I have to go to. For some reason in my head in the summer it will be easier to work out, but then again I'm sure I will have to talk myself out of trying to not workout in 90-100 degree weather. My plan was to be going in the middle of the day right after my mom gets home from work and I get done watching the boys. But that is actually only 2 days out of the week, 3 other days will be working out downstairs in the gym, and the last one is on Saturdays. And I can get up and get outside before it starts to get too hot on those days :)

So far the no coffee is going alright. I did end up with a headache yesterday, so i took one exederin. But today so far no headache. I did just have a slight, I wish I had a cup of coffee moment a few minutes ago, but I am gonna go fix some lunch and get over that moment. Haven't done a whole lot this morning, in fact I am still sitting in my PJ's.

Time to go find something to eat! My stomach is starting to growl. Have a great weekend!

Wednesday weigh in week 16

Once again, sorry for the blurry picture...but after all it is just a scale ;0)

Oh hey look! I've seen this number before! It's what I weighed 2 weeks ago! Ok Can I just say that I am still slightly irritated that all week every time I have weighed myself it was 217.6 and this morning it jumps up? At any rate I now weigh still what I was when I graduated high school. Still a motivating factor to me, so that's what I'm going with! Now I just need to get it down to two other things. 1) What my license currently says (199...um yeah about that....hey at the time I was actually only 20 pounds heavier!) And 2) what my first license was when I was 16( which was *gulp* 195) After that I don't think I could tell you any points of I weighed this when I was this age because honestly I don't think I ever weighed myself. I'm gonna just have to say when I get down to 120 that it was close to 5th grade to Junior High when I weighed that little. :0) So anything after 195 is just icing on the cake :)

So yesterday I didn't actually end up having time to have my "last cup of coffee" and ended up with the worst dull right across the head headache a person could have. I finally had to take some Excederin to make it go away. I have a feeling it's gonna be my friend for the next week or so while the caffeine gets out of my body. So today I enjoyed what I thought was going to be my last cup and lo and behold there is enough syrup for one more cup :) So looks like tomorrow will be the day. LOL I keep saying that. But it's true.

I need a vacation after my vacation

Isn't that how it always works? After being off of work last week, I really wasn't quite ready to head back to work today but off I went. And I was so tired last night I think I was in bed around 8. The only thing that got me out of bed on time today was an phone call at 6:05 am from a company that has a computer dial numbers. Grrrr. I not so nicely told her how early it was and suggested that her company make sure they check their time zones before dialing out. But it got me out of bed on time I suppose.

I was sitting here just realizing how little time we actually have until school gets out for the summer. Quite literally almost 2 months to the day. If we hadn't of had to take the snow days we would have been out the 8th of June. Now it's the 11th of June. And that's gonna go by so fast. And my preschoolers only come 4 days a week. So they really only have about 30 actual school days left! It's so crazy to think!

Easter was an interesting eating day. I want to think I did ok..until the 3 pieces of Angel food cake ;0) I mean all in all I could have cut back on the potato chips and only had 1 piece of cake and I would have been fine. I just feel like I do way better totally restricted on something. I pretty much have to not be able to have it at all. Otherwise I just can't stop. One piece turns into two, turns into three. But if I can't have it at all, it's way easier to say I just can't eat it. It's so hard to draw the line between how much is ok to eat and how much isn't. But is a chicken patty worth it? Nope. Not really. Do I miss it? oh yeah. But to reach my goal it's gotta go.

Speaking of gotta go. Tuesday is probably my last coffee. I'm almost out of syrup and I told myself once that was gone that I was done. That's one of the things that has to go for me to reach my goal. My milk frother broke, so already my latte's aren't as good. I of course had just bought a brand new big bag of the coffee at costco, so that went to a friend. I judged wrong, so I still have a few beans left..but I might just put them in a container of some sort so I can smell them :) I'm liking that idea. I will miss my coffee though. I've gotten used to the routine of having a quiet time with it in the morning before the boys get up. I will really miss it over the summer. Hopefully this isn't a lifelong give up, but more like a temporary give up. I guess we will just see how long it takes me to reach my goal :)

Spring Cleaning

Sometimes when we do spring cleaning I think we end up cleaning more than just a room. Maybe it's just me but when I clean I feel like I am cleaning the inside of me as well as the outside room. I have been in high cleaning gear this week since it's Spring Break. Now I haven't exactly gotten every single thing done that I wanted to. But I have done a lot. I have emptied and dusted and vacuumed and rearranged two rooms. (With help!!). And I seem to have it pretty surface-y cleaned. But it's the things with doors that close and drawers that close that get me every time. I have shoved things into my closets and buffet of things to look at later, to go through later. Mainly things I just don't have room for, or papers to put away. Things I just don't want to deal with right now. Or projects that I think will take a long time to finish. So I avoid starting them. Sound like anything in your life?

It's amazing how much lighter I feel when my room is cleaned and organized. It's like a never ending stress has been lifted. Although I know I still have a lot to organize and get rid of in my room, I feel like I have won part of the battle. This week I got rid of 4 pieces of furniture in my room. My full bed, the nightstand that goes with it, a filing cabinet, and a media cabinet. And my rooms seem so much bigger (especially going back to a twin bed), and I don't feel so stressed. Yeah, yeah, maybe I'm weird like that ;)

So I got my new shoes yesterday!! I'm very excited about this. I switched my shoes from the Brooks Ariel to the Brooks Addiction. And my feet were much happier on my run yesterday. I was able to run the entire time and that mental block that I felt the other day was gone. I also ran a different course on the trail at the park. So that might have helped too? It's less crowded I think.

I was looking at my mapmyrun app and it showed my splits on my miles. I was amused that my first two miles were exactly the same! And my third mile I was trying to make myself run faster. Just little bits. I ended up 40 seconds faster in the last mile. But I also ran a little bit longer and did a shorter cool down walk. Right under 53 minutes for 3 miles. Which is awesome for me! I'm pretty excited about that. I battle this feeling of thinking I am running too slow and then super excited that I have that fast of a mile. I'll settle for being happy.

I'm in serious mourning right now. I have to give up my coffee. It's becoming too much of an addiction, too much of an idol. And for me to be serious about my weight loss it has to go. I am really hoping that later down the line I might be able to start having it again. But right now I just don't know. So after my syrup is gone that I have, the leftover coffee is going to my friend and I am going to nicely tuck all my coffee stuff away and move on. Sometimes you just have to sacrifice some things to get where you want to be. Considering I haven't been drinking it that long I should be ok with it. But it definitely doesn't take too long to be building habits, and so hopefully it won't take too long to get it out of my system. I can't be where I want to be by doing the things I always do. 

Got on the scale this morning :) This isn't a new thing. I usually weigh myself every day, but won't officially change the ticker until Wednesdays. It was back down to the number I was at before the wedding at the beginning of March. Which means once again I weigh what I did when I graduated high school. Which is scary and sad all at the same time. But I can wake up every day and say I weigh less than what I did when I was 18. From now on it's I haven't weighed this little since high school. I can do this. Especially when I want to give up. And eat bread or sugar or keep having coffee. I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. Always fighting the same battles. Slight little motivators to keep going and push through weeks like last week.

Spring always makes me think new beginnings :) And I am ready for one for sure!

Wednesday Weigh in Week 15

This is what happens when you don't get workouts in and you have to heck with it eating moments. I gained 1.8 pounds this week. And I am not surprised at all. I ate a lot of things last week that I shouldn't have. Ok. No really. I ate a lot last month that I shouldn't have. And it just is a proving point to me that these are foods that I should not be eating. And I do much better without them. So it's back to strictly not eating them. No more being lax about the rules. It's back to business.

I had what I considered a bad workout yesterday. It was the first time in almost a week and a half that I was able to go for a run. And by run I mean I ended up walking 2 miles instead of running 3. I was trying out my little belt thing that I have for holding keys and my phone while I run and it pretty much almost fell off, I had two dogs come running at me at the park. Both times I completely stopped running. And pretty much didn't start back up again. I could feel every bounce that was happening when I run. I just had this horrible mental block. There was a ton of people at the park since it's spring break and it was a beautiful day. I even got my first sunburn of the year ;0) I ended up doing 2 miles in 37 minutes. Which all in all isn't bad. That's still faster than what I usually do. But I think my shoes are shot. They are way past miles I believe. Which was another discouraging reason to quit running yesterday. I have new ones ordered at Runner's Soul, I am just waiting for them to come in.

This is the depressing part about weight loss. The part where you don't lose weight and you gain it instead. Where one cheat turns into almost a month of cheating, where you get yourself off track and it's hard mentally to get back on. Which is why it's a weight loss battle. I'm fighting for this. It won't always just come off two pounds a week easy at a time. It's gonna be a blood, sweat, and tears battle till December 31st and I weigh 100 pounds less than when I did on January 1st.

Because this is my year. This is the year that I will finish what I start. That is what I have said, and that is what I will do. No matter what my mind tries to deceive me into thinking. I refuse to believe the lies.

Spring Fever

I made it through last week very successfully not running at all and eating very carelessly full of gluten. My stomach was killing me last night! Blah!

I am ready for this week to start so I can get back to a normal running schedule and get back to eating better

and

Spring cleaning!

I really have no idea why I am so excited about this. It's Spring Break. I have a whole week off! I have the boys in the morning while Mom is at work, but I'm sure I can put them to work doing something for me :) I just got done shampoo-ing the carpet upstairs. And my downstairs is full of everything from upstairs.

I decided recently to go from a full bed back to a twin. My room isn't horribly small, but it's hard to get around in with my full bed. I haven't rearranged my room since I moved in about 5ish years ago. And I was getting the itch to redo it. And conveniently my friend who got married had a great twin bed that her dad built with 6 drawers in it that she was getting rid of so I snapped it up :)

Now I am waiting for that to dry so I can get everything back up there and then get totally super organized this week. My room stresses me out horribly, because I always ignore it and either do nothing, or go help out other people and my room definitely suffers. I am gonna go through my stuff and get rid of a ton of stuff! I mean I live in a 500 square foot apartment..and I have a lot crammed in here! I plan on getting rid of some furniture stuff too, so yeah. for some reason I just shouldn't have this much stuff!! LOL I think I am really craving a simplistic life right now.

And on that note it's time to crawl into bed. hmm..I took that apart...Or the couch. Or the mattress on the floor? I haven't really decided which LOL! I need to go fill up my water bottles and clean out my coffee maker for the morning.

Any one else excited for spring cleaning?