Oh blogger. I have come on here to read other people's posts..and I just don't know what to say. Life took a hard hit in January and it took me all of February to recover. I didn't make any goals...I pretty much didn't work out. I had a lot of pajama weekends. I was really just in a place of what am I supposed to be doing? Where am I supposed to be? Why am I here still? I talked to several friends about what I'm supposed to be doing with my life.
I just didn't have any desire to find a church in the town that I live in. I wanted to go to the church in California, which I was supposed to go visit at the beginning of the month and all of Oregon decided to get snowed on and pretty much close down my path to California. I did a lot of researching churches and none of them really appealed to me here...but my desire to be there was pretty strong. I would rather stay in my bedroom on a Sunday live-streaming their service than trying to find a church here.
I wrestled with what's the will of God in my life right now. I had to look at every opportunity here...maybe my church closing just pushed the timeline up of me moving to California. My secret plan was to finish school and get my degree, and then move down there. But that would have taken me more than 2 years. But I ended up with no real attachments to this area anymore suddenly in January. Is now the right time? I couldn't get a really good sense of what I'm supposed to do. But one of my friends basically told me that by moving or staying that God is still going to bless what I do. That I'm not going against his heart by moving, and that he will work it out for my good.
So I'm taking that leap. You know..that one in faith that says "Just what the heck are you actually doing?" I told my supervisor last week that after this school year is over, I'm not returning and I'm moving to Redding, California. So at some point before the end of August I will be getting all my stuff down there and finding a job and a place to live :)
But in the meantime!!! I got accepted to go to a 2 week School of Worship at Bethel Church in Redding California. Now I'm super excited about this...but quite nervous. Altogether its $775 for tuition and then I need two weeks of housing and gas and food money. And I made this decision last year that I was going to actually do this THIS year. So by faith I had my 100 deposit in my bank account and applied when it opened up in January. Well February 19th I got the email saying I'd been accepted :0) And So the other day I paid my deposit...now I only need 675 more for tuition. And while looking at housing options last week I came across a house that I can rent (with about 6 other girls) for $250 for the whole two weeks. And amazingly my tax return this year covered almost all of that. So I was able to mail a check off last week to pay my housing completely. It's crazy how it's all pulling together...but it is..
And on the side note of working out and eating better...Well I'm at least getting the working out done ;) I made a goal to go to the gym every day in March. In my head I came up with this great plan of alternating one mile and legs, two miles, and core, and three miles and arms. Well that went great for two days ;) haha..I got to day 3 and couldn't get to 3 miles. My body just wasn't up for it. But I did a little more than two and did some arms and moved on. I will be going to the gym at a different time from now on to see if I can get past that mental block.
It's the eating better that really gets me. There is just such a mental block. I just don't like a lot of foods. I'm such a texture eater. There are just things I can't handle because of that. And well I seem to be allergic to every kind of food that I don't mind eating ;) Which is a downfall. Because then I'm eating things I'm still allergic to. So I'm not getting them to leave my body, so it's still bloating and holding on to all of that. I'm starting to cut back on my coffee...Simply because I need to save the money...so that will help in the no milk department...I just need to get away from the mac and cheese. It's just really easy to eat for lunch when I don't seem to have the time to make anything else that's quick.
SO that's my updated life in a nutshell..If you would like to help me out financially to get to Redding for School of Worship I would so LOVE and appreciate that! You can let me know and I can give you my address to send money to me, or I can give you a link to where you can donate to me directly at the church's website.
