Real life

Well I'm glad the first 9 days of the year were awesome. I have spent the next 14 days wishing for a redo button. That was a fast reality crash.

Due to unforeseen events my church closed last week. And my life has once again gone into a tailspin. I found out Tuesday of last week that the church was closing. I spent Wednesday evening packing up the church and Thursday moving it out of the building. Saturday night I tried out a different church. It wasn't bad. Just different.

But it's not what I was expecting to start out the year with. I wasn't expecting to be churchless 10 days into the new year. I wasn't expecting my Pastors to have to move away so that he can recover. I wasn't expecting to have to find a new church. I mean really. I was planning on moving in a year or so to a different place and going to a different church there. But I already know that church. I don't have to guess or church shop around for a church.

It hasn't fully sunk in yet. I love my Pastors. I truly want whats best for them and for their health. But I wasn't quite ready to fly out of the nest yet. Haha. I was pretty dang comfortable.

Which leads me to think that this just might not end up being a comfortable year :) And that's a little scary of a process to think.

It's like I said on facebook after it all happened. God I don't know what you are doing...but I know YOU. His plans are to prosper me, not harm me. His plans are to be right beside me, not hiding from me. His plans are to lead and guide me, not leave my hanging to my own devices.

And while I haven't made it to the gym, due to long nights and less sleep. I really just am trying to not make myself sick. I haven't let my eating go completely. I think today has been the worst day out of all of them. I have had way too much bread and milk. But for the most part I've still kept myself in check for the majority of the day. And that's at least something.

So I'm not even out of January yet, and I feel like I need to start over haha! I guess life just might not be going the way I thought it was. So here's to a new adventure!