Wednesday Weigh in Week 21

Yep. Survival Mode still. Well that and I'm a girl. And that's all I'm going to say about that. I am currently sitting in my pajama's fighting the urge to go and buy ice cream. My mind is telling me that it really needs a blizzard. My stomach isn't completely full. I was thinking about eating a piece of pizza in a little bit. That might help with this ice cream problem.

What I really need to do is get back to my gluten free diet. For the last couple of days I have this spot in my mouth that I am pretty sure is candida related. And I could probably get rid of it by going back to GF. My life is quite stressful at the moment. So I am just coping by using food. Sometimes I wish I was the other way around. Coping by not eating. But then again I want to be healthy. Or at least coping by working out. I still haven't figured out how to be home to take care of family and work out. I literally want to go to bed the second I know the boys are asleep because I am just so tired. Let's be real here. Getting up by 5:30 to take care of dog/Mom/boys, get me ready for work, work 7 hours, cook dinner, do baths, read stories, put boys to bed, clean the kitchen and try to keep my eyes open until 9 doesn't somehow include exercise. But it does include stuffing my face. Sometimes stuffing it to stay awake. Last night I crawled into bed at 8 hoping to get some much needed sleep. Yeah. I felt like I woke up every hour. Or to say the least felt like I rolled over a million times. It's 7 now and I am ready to crawl back into bed. Sometimes the dishes are just gonna stay dirty.

And I know it's bad to think that I'm really not all that concerned that my weight is going up and down right now. I think partly it's due to not wanting to beat myself up for not being on track to my goal. But circumstantially right now, I don't feel like I am doing all that bad. I haven't gained it all back. I'm at least being honest with myself. I'm under a 10 pound gain. I really just need to get through the next 3 weeks and then I will be able to get back to being really serious. Or that's what I keep telling myself in my head.

Wednesday weigh in week 20

Oh man. 20 weeks? Yikes

See I was all prepared for a big huge gain this week. I mean. After all I have been stuffing my face ALL week. And not exercising ALL week. Sometimes you just go into survival mode and life happens. So when I got on the scale this morning and this number came up I kind of got off scratching my head. So did I really gain all that weight last week or was it just a fluke on the scale? I don't know. All I know is the number went down and I stuffed my face all week. Weird but true.

I turned into instant full time mom last week when my Mom had major surgery and is going to be down and out for the next 4-6 weeks. So I am basically now watching 2 boys 24 hours a day and trying to figure out how to work and work out and not eat myself out of my body. I have less than a month until school is out and that's what I am waiting for right now! LOL!

Wednesday weigh in week 19

Ok. So let's just be completely honest and real here. My mom is in the hospital having some surgery done today. And two weeks ago when this mess all started I just kinda had a to heck with it moment, and I've been downhill since then. Yes I have been "carb-loading" and not in a good way. I am not to be trusted with donuts in the house. At all. And I've been to DQ a couple of times for some tasty blizzards. Or frozen yogurt. I haven't been able to be consistent in my working out. And sorry guys, but my cycle has thrown me all out of whack. All of this means 7 pounds gained in two weeks. Hmmmmmmm. I'm still pretty sure that not all of it is actual weight, or just water or bloating or whatever.

And I am most likely gonna have to be switching my workouts around for the next 6 weeks until Mom is fully recovered.

Needless to say it's always a fight for something. And even if my head is telling me that it wants to quit and give up and keep eating gluten and dairy and carbs, my heart is gonna win this battle. I refuse to live the rest of my life like this. And so the battle rages on.

Happy Wednesday...

Oh yeah!! Let's end on a happy note!! I have been borrowing Katie's garmin, and I have run with it 3 times now. This week I started bumping up my miles. I am up to 3.5 miles at a time. I found a great new path to go on and it's been interesting to see the difference between the garmin and my mapmyrun app. It's about .04 to.10 of a mile and about 20 seconds to 30 seconds difference in the average pace. All in all, its not too bad. On the one hand it's remembering to charge another thing before I run. On the other hand, it's nice to look down and see what my mileage and time is and not have to drag out the phone and unlock it and get it put away..Christmas present to myself maybe? ;)

Wednesday Weigh in Week 18

Sometimes I really just don't understand my body. Yep. Gain of 3.8 pounds. I know for sure I didn't eat 13,000 extra calories. So I'm not playing mind games. That's what the scale said. But I worked out 4 times last week, and yeah I ate things I shouldn't have. So maybe that's what my body is holding on to. But it's not going to cause me to quit. Just time to keep going :)

Hottest day of the year and I decide to run!

Yep. That about sums me up today! LOL! Hey it was a scheduled run! I'm not going just because its 90. Now that's I've done it I might very well change my mind hehe..But. Off I went. Even after a transformer blew somewhere around the school and we were out of power for 3 hours. No seriously. Do you know how hard it is to make preschoolers go to the bathroom where there are no lights? It was a (kind of) hilarious day with no lights. And then I went running.

I was trying out the garmin today! I was definitely excited to compare the two and see how close they were and they were only about .04 off of each other. And no I didn't really go trying to PR in 90 degree weather. I was just trying to finish! It was really funny. I had just been thinking to myself about how irritating it was for the people on the bike to not tell me that they were passing me. Now just because I have headphones in doesn't mean I can't hear you say "to your left" or something like that so I know you are there right before you whizz past me. I'm pretty sure it's what the sign says when you come into the park. Let the slower people (aka me!) know that you are coming up on them so you don't scare the bejeebee's out of them! So this one guy passed me rather unexpectedly. But he yelled "Keep it up!" at me. And totally made me smile. I was almost to 1.5 miles and ready to stop, but I kept going. Then almost to 2 miles these other people were like"Good job, way to go!". It made me smile.

But I did stop right after two miles. Well I started walking. And you know what. I walked the whole third mile. And I was absolutely ok with it. It was so stinking hot. I didn't want to overheat myself and pass out on a trial with no one around. So I made the decision to do what was best for me. And that was to walk. I did about two more spurts of running, but my body was pretty clear it was done running for the day. And I still ended up with about a 17 minute average :)

So my two thoughts for the day are: Random encouragement is fun :) Be nice to crazy people running in the park. They might need a way to go, or a smile from you. And two: I gotta start planning different running times in the summer. I don't plan on running too many more 90 degree runs.

And now I am off to try to catch some of this lightning that I hear the thunder rumbling from. It's getting close, so I better get the computer off!

<3

Perspective

It's so funny how our minds can really mess things up. We always tend to look more at the negative of things. Like instead of saying Oh I've lost 25 pounds this year, It's Oh I have 95 more pounds to go. I mean c'mon. Really? Why can't I seem to wrap my head around the fact that hey, I've lost 25 pounds. I mean that's a really great accomplishment. But really all I want to do is go OMG! Look how much I still have to lose by December!! I'm feeling like it's crunch time already, and it's only April. Which I suppose could be a good thing considering I am generally such a last minute person that I wait until I absolutely need to do something. But you can't really do that with weight loss. You gotta take it day by day. When really. I am 1/4 of the way to my goal. Well of losing 100 pounds. I mean I really want to lose more than that. But I will settle for 100. Not by any means will I not be happy in December if I don't hit 100 pounds. But I will do everything I dang well have to to be at 140 or under by December 31.

Including running in 90 degree weather tomorrow. Yikes! I was looking at the weather for tomorrow. And realizing there is absolutely no way I will be running in my pants that have pockets. And I haven't been able to find any capris that have a pocket that will hold my phone. So I improvised. We have these passport belts laying around our house, and it pretty well happens to look just like the running belt that I have been looking at buying. I tried the phone in it tonight, and it should work :) I don't think it will fall off while I am running. But we shall see tomorrow :) It might just help me by putting off purchasing a belt at this moment.

I'm charging the garmin to take it out on my run tomorrow :) I read the tutorial that Katie sent out, and already changed my info and stuff. So I will be comparing the mapmyrun app and the garmin tomorrow. I just have to remember to pack everything! Geesh!

I got to go shopping with a friend who met one of her goal weights yesterday. We had a great time trying to create an outfit for her. We had originally started with a red outfit she had seem put together. (Kinda like the ones on Pinterest). Yeah we totally ended up with this green open shoulder shirt from the junior section. I was highly amused because as a friend I was able to say, No. You don't wear a large now, you wear a medium. Try the smaller shirt on. And it worked. She fit into the smaller sizes of course ;) I can't wait till it's my turn and she makes me try on some clothes that I normally would never. Although I don't think that's gonna be a problem with me :) I can't wait to get into the smaller much cuter clothes!

Whew. It's already feeling hot in my room. I better get to bed and get started on next week!

It's here!!

I am so excited!! Katie's Garmin got here for me to try for a few weeks. Of course it came after my run this morning and right as I was walking out the door. So now I can't wait for my run on Monday to test it out. It's gonna be dangerous for sure as I already know I am probably going to want one. I will have to settle for my mapmyrun app for now ;) I'm pretty sure I am gonna use both of them and see how they compare.

I love Katie's blog by the way. She has lost 120 pounds and is maintaining it. She's so real, and crazy enough to send her Garmin across the country and even into Canada for absolute strangers to try. I read her blog every day :0)

So a funny thing happened on my run on Thursday :0) My app told me me average pace was 16:23. Um hello? Who am I? Running that fast. I was super excited that my 3 mile run was done in 49:14!! And it said my first mile was done in 15: 24. I mean did I break it? I really had no idea that I was even running that fast.

I honestly thought it was a fluke. 

Until I went running today.

I get back home and logged on. My app told me my average pace was 15:37 (!!!!) and that my 3 mile run was done in 46:55. And I even ran a mile in 15:00 even. Now for real. Once again, I didn't even think that I was running that fast. And today I even was running around the track at the middle school. (They were having a 5k race at the park I normally run at, a boat/rv/camping show at the second park I would have started at, and a pet adoption at my 3rd option. Keep my away. I will bring home an animal!! So the track it was.)

I'm really just quite shocked. I mean even from one run to the next, I seemed to have taken off almost 3 minutes. I mean, I know I have lost 25 pounds this year. And yeah. I have to keep telling myself that's a lot. But I have never been able to imagine running a 15 minute mile. I go back and forth over whether I want to maintain it for a while or just press on and try to keep running faster. I mean I know I did get some cross training in this week, but seriously. Does it help that fast? I don't know, LOL!

And since I'm being quite random in this post, I will just also tell you that I did 4 of my 6 planned workouts this week. I count this as quite a success :) I managed to run 2 times and do 2 other workouts. I'm happy that I was able to get some workouts besides running. It's nice to be able to work out at home sometimes too. Even if the bike killed me ;)

I think I will stop here for tonight. I have other thoughts swirling in my head, but I am going to keep those for tomorrow :)